Hi Family!
First.Thank you all very much for the package that was sent to me. I am excited to eat all that there food but even more was I excited to listen to people on the CD. I still haven't finished the CD but I liked Emily's song to me the most. I let all the sisters in my zone listen to it when we were in the car and they laughed so hard. I feel so special to have my own song created for me. And to answer your question, Emm, I'm doing great! And my companion? She's getting transferred.
Today we got the call in the morning saying who was going and who was staying. Hna McDonald is going. I hope I've trained her well enough, but truly she has grown a lot in the past weeks so I think she'll do well. I'm almost positive I know who's coming in next and I thinking I'm excited. I'll let you know who my next comanion is in my next email.
This week we got to hear an apostle speak to us! On Saturday, Elder Ballard was in the area to visit his family, so he said, "Oh you want me to come and speak to your missionaries? Ok, sho." And that's exactly what he did. He's so down to earth. He's so full of truth. He's so put together and has the right perspective on life. I think its because he is so full of truth. Anyway, it was a neat experience and I want to tell you that if there's ever an opportunity for you to go hear or see a prophet or apostle, do it! Sacrifice whatever it takes to go see him and your own testimony will grow so much. Your hope level will skyrocket. To the MOON!!!...and back. Say that reminds me. I gave a talk in sacrament meeting yesterday on sacrifice. It was the fifth sunday and four of us missionaries spoke. I shared the story about mom punching the cake because us kids didn't know how to sacrifice. Nobody laughed. But afterward many came up to me to compliment me on the spirit i brought into the meeting. Our investigator Elsa said that she was really glad she came to see me "testify." Say that also reminds me...Elsa is progressing towards baptism! It's so exciting to see someone who actually understands and is excited about this doctrine. We watched the 25 minute restoration movie with her and she had to rewind a few parts because she liked the wording of it and she felt like she wanted to really understand the process of the Book of Mormon better. She said, "Wow these are the exact same questions that we have!" as it showed Joseph Smith's confusion before he knelt to ask which of all the churches were true. She wants to be baptized, but she realizes that her family doesn't like church and so we are going to start helping them as a family and not just her.
Also this week, we had Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving. We had some good appointments during the day, we visited most of our progressing investigators, and we had 3 dinner appointments. I was sick by the end of the night. I actually ended up throwing up and getting a fever. I'm still getting over it but it's not affecting the work. I got to thinking about something the other day when I heard our mission president say, "Don't think of your lunch break as 'your time.' Pday isn't 'your time.' It all belongs to the Lord and you should never think about yourself instead of others." This stressed me out a little and I asked myself, well when will I ever have MY time? When will I not have a moment that I'm sacrificing to give to others? And as I was thinking this, my thoughts linked into other thoughts and I came to this conclusion. Why do I even want "my time"? What will I get out of it? Well, I think I'll be happier because I'm getting what I want. So ultimately I want happiness. Something inside me said, have you not been the happiest when you've been serving the Lord? When you've been giving to others instead of yourself? It's a weird thought but its true. I have been the happiest these past few months because I've been sacrificing my own wants for the needs of others. But I've been doing it with faith, knowing that the Lord is going to bless me with a better consequence than that of which I'd get if I'd thought about myself instead. It's backwards. When give others what they need, we are given what we want. And that want is HAPPINESS.
Elder Ballard said something profound. He said, "You will never find the enthusiasm to wake up in the morning until you internalize these doctrines." He was of course talking about the doctrine of Christ. So often before the mission, and even on the mission I've wondered, when will I ever be happy to wake up? Will I ever not be in a bad mood in the morning, dreading what lies ahead of me? It turns out that the answer is yes. I am waking up happier each morning. I'm actually excited to read my scriptures in the morning. I'm excited to learn spanish. I'm excited to go out the door and go to work. I'm really loving life. I don't love giving up sweets right now. But that's only because I haven't been doing it for a while so it still feels un natural. I used to HATE recording the daily miles for the car, but now I don't mind. I used to hate getting up to exercise but I now look forward to it. I used to dread approaching people on the streets to talk to them....and I still get kind of scared. But after its all said and done, I truly LOVE talking to people. So why do I love it now? I don't think my situation has gotten any easier. But the difference is that I understand the doctrine of Christ and have blindly obeyed it until my faith has become a pure knowledge and understanding. Now I see why obedience is so importance. It truly does make a person happier.
Family, I love you all so much. I'm so grateful for what you're doing to help me be out here learning and growing. I never want these feelings of happiness to go away. I hope I never fall back into the pattern of selfishness when I get back home. Help me not to do that, ok?
Jill, thank you for the pictures! I love it so much. David and Rachel, I enjoy your son. Thanks for being a support to me.Dan and Nicole, I met someone from Albequerque yesterday. They're moving to South America though.
Candice, I promise I wasn't in San Diego. But Emily should have gone and said hi anyway and given the lady a kiss. And then probably she would have magically transformed into me cuz stuff like that happens when you kiss a frog so maybe it happens when you kiss a missionary. I wouldn't know.Camille, I wrote you an email.Jacob, I wrote you an email.Jordan, I wrote you a letter and email. I love you.Dad, I still need to write you a letter. Mayber you could write me another letter to remind me to write you a letter. Then there will be letters all over the place!Mom, your spanish is almost as fluent as your french! I'm so impressed! We'll definitely have to gossip under the dinner table when I get home. Slash, on Christmas.Peggy, I loved your thanksgiving card!I love you all. Este evangelio es verdadero.Los quiero mucho!
Hermana Langston